You may think that I'm desperate to get a girl but I'm not actually. Not many people can feel my pain. Even how much I tell them the story about my life they don't seem to be on the same page as me. For some of you may know, my life just fell instantly back about 4 years ago. It's not like I'm still clinging on the past but the past made me who I am now, a better person than few years back. It's hard for me to move on when my real goal can never be achieved since then. What people say as a joke may hurt me & I try my best to keep it to myself.

Each single day I reflected and reflected by myself, well I started to see that there's not much problem with me. So I started comparing myself with other people & what I found out was a kind of opposite of me, mostly are. Girls that are pretty but bitches & guys that are handsome but an ass. So from there I think to myself, its kind of stupid to change to be like those people just to get accepted. I then made a conclusion from all my reflections it's not the problem about me but it's people, which I feel is the society these days. That's a conclusion I stand for now but the deeper you go more questions you will have. I started observing the psychology of people. Well it's not easy.

My problems are not only girls, the person who knows most of my problems is my bestie, Effa, yet she hardly understands me but she still tries her best & be a listening ear. =) IMY girl.

I may think too much but it's hard to stop when you have a lot of problems which some problems has no link to another. So it's just damn hard to stop stressing when I feel like falling without a single cushion in my sight.

I think that's enough for now.
Ouh yahh lastly..

To my lovely daughter,

I so miss you so much. & I hope to see you soon. Thanks for being there for me at late nights & all when I'm down or just plain bored. I enjoyed having your company a lot. Lastly, I wanna tell you that if you are reading this right now, SHUT YOUR LAPPY & GO STUDY!!!hehe =)

loves,
daddy kimmy =)